I really can't move on. I don't know what to do. I can't have anyone but you, no one is good enough. I miss you so much you don't even know. I miss how we used to hold hands, i miss hugging you, i miss seeing you, i miss everything. I want everything to go back to the way it was but i know its never going to happen. I want you to come back into my life and have things back to the beginning of freshman year. And as i sit here crying and thinking of what it would be like with you, i think back to homecoming. That was the day i let you go. i said 'i only want to be friends." why couldn't I just say "i want to get to know you better"? No. i had to end it flat, right then and there. and i regret it so much becasue now im alone and I don't want to move on. i don't want to believe theres someone else in your life other than me. I want that to be me holding your hand, not her. ugh i really need something to get my mind off him, but somethings telling me not to...i guess i'm just waiting for you to say "i made a mistake, i want you back." i don't know how long i'll be waiting but it's worth it if i get you in the end<3