...I really kinda stopped believing in this saying. I always try and make things happen. why am i always the one trying to make things work? I always have to be the big person and say "hi" and why is that? i dont know. and i dont understand. i believe some people are just lazy or don't care...just like all 3 of u...wait actually 4 now. im sick and tired of it. I need to stop being the big person all the time. the problem is idk if i can stop. I want to hangout with all you guys and you say u want to see me but yet you do nothing about it. if you rly dont wana see me just tell me. i can take it. i may not like it but ill get over it. I know none of you will read this but here it is. You and me were together for awhile and then we fell apart. You moved on and got a girlfriend and i cant do anything about it. You say u want to be there for me and be my best friend still. The thing is your not making that happen. I try and invite you places but your always "busy"...probally busy with your annoying girlfriend. Well im trying one last time. This summer i plan on going to the movies with you and old friends. hopefully you will come and you wont be busy.                 YOU say you like me and I know you do. We've been good friends this year and i dont want to ruin that. I dont know how u like me because it sure doesnt seem like that. You almost ignore me. and yeah i only like u as a friend but that doesnt give you the right to not talk to me. is it that your shy? well u can be shy but still talk to me. Im always the one to say hi to you and start a conversation. even online.                 and you, yes you. You say you want to hangout and "u love me" but whos the one asking you to? yep. me. im the one asking. the last time you asked and i said i could and that you were free. But like ALWAYS, u cancel the plans..                   oh yeah and i forgot "my best friend". She always has to "clean" and can rarley have people over anymore. i seriously think shes sick of us now. It was never a problem before and now all of a sudden it is. And I know all summer ull say the same thing and u wont ever be home. Last year i walked over and her moms aid the same thing everytime, "oh shes out". like its not fair. You say ur always home and no one invites you places but everyday we ask you u avoid us and don't call back, ur always busy. Its always a story with you and im fed up with being the one who asks you. when do u ever call me up asking for plans? never.

now that thats out of the way, i have to say my day was absolutllyyyyyyyyyy....

BORING. i woke up at 10:30 and cleaned my whole kitchen spotless with steph. then i cleaned my room and moved my rabbit up to my room. i know my room looks a bit smaller with all the stuff i cram in there but its worth it. Now that i have a air purifier i wont be coughing and now that i have my bunny up there my room will be stinkier than ever! YAY. After we cleaned and did some more boring stuff we went to starbucks. Surprisingly we were able to do something semi fun. well yah. done writing for today, goodnight. i still love you :/