last night had to be the worst night for me. i sat there from 10 to 12:30 trying to fall asleep and it just wasnt happening. I just laid there trying to think of anything i cud think of to make me fall asleep and that wen i started to cry just alittle bit. its a very sad thing wen theres no one on yer mind at night. i always thought of yew before bed. Not lately at all but thats when the memories started hitting me...hard. i rembered all the times we had together. every single one. the memories made me happy at first and then it turned into sadness and then fustration. i rly didnt know what was wrong with me. i havnt had serious thought about him for a while. When i had that moment of silence to think, he came to mind. It doesnt nessisarily mean i miss him, but i miss having someone who cares about me as much as i care about them. someone who no matter what happens, they still come back to yew in the end. that one guy who you can count on and that one guy who yew feel completely comfortable taking his hand to hold. idk why but there isnt anyone who made me feel lyk yew did. maybe this is a sign that i can't handle a boyfriend. maybe its not. i rly have no idea. with all that in mind i fell asleep eventually and woke up the next day. i got ready and then steph came over before we left. i made my way to the corner of Valmont and Abbey. There i took my first steps onto the 6:55 bus. I was a bit anxious at first but then the feeling faded. i was soo tired this morning and still now. everyone was like a zombie walking into class, including me lmao. As i walked into 1st period, english i looked around nervously for a seat hoping ide se my friend and there they were sitting in the corner with one seat open. This was the first class of 10th grade. oh. my. god. I was bored already. My lunch was actually the only gud period including global cuz steph was in it but my teacher is so strict x_x. i have a quiz on the 2nd day of school. idk what shes thinking...! Isn't the first day of school supossed to be fun kinda? i thought so but it wasnt. Even though i found some people to talk to in each class it still sucked. Well whateverr, let's hope the rest of this year will be good.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
last night had to be the worst night for me. i sat there from 10 to 12:30 trying to fall asleep and it just wasnt happening. I just laid there trying to think of anything i cud think of to make me fall asleep and that wen i started to cry just alittle bit. its a very sad thing wen theres no one on yer mind at night. i always thought of yew before bed. Not lately at all but thats when the memories started hitting me...hard. i rembered all the times we had together. every single one. the memories made me happy at first and then it turned into sadness and then fustration. i rly didnt know what was wrong with me. i havnt had serious thought about him for a while. When i had that moment of silence to think, he came to mind. It doesnt nessisarily mean i miss him, but i miss having someone who cares about me as much as i care about them. someone who no matter what happens, they still come back to yew in the end. that one guy who you can count on and that one guy who yew feel completely comfortable taking his hand to hold. idk why but there isnt anyone who made me feel lyk yew did. maybe this is a sign that i can't handle a boyfriend. maybe its not. i rly have no idea. with all that in mind i fell asleep eventually and woke up the next day. i got ready and then steph came over before we left. i made my way to the corner of Valmont and Abbey. There i took my first steps onto the 6:55 bus. I was a bit anxious at first but then the feeling faded. i was soo tired this morning and still now. everyone was like a zombie walking into class, including me lmao. As i walked into 1st period, english i looked around nervously for a seat hoping ide se my friend and there they were sitting in the corner with one seat open. This was the first class of 10th grade. oh. my. god. I was bored already. My lunch was actually the only gud period including global cuz steph was in it but my teacher is so strict x_x. i have a quiz on the 2nd day of school. idk what shes thinking...! Isn't the first day of school supossed to be fun kinda? i thought so but it wasnt. Even though i found some people to talk to in each class it still sucked. Well whateverr, let's hope the rest of this year will be good.
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