oh fuck so i miss you. I feel like my whole body hurts and its not a gud feeling at all. like the same feeling when i had to say i wanted to just be friends and that time at the movies...i dont want to relive those memories. I want you back so bad and talking to u makes me want you even more. Its so sad how im still talking about this kid. I moved on and im able to date other guys but if he came to my front step and told me that hes sorry and that he wants us to work out and asked me out right on the spot, ide say yes in a heartbeat. and now im rly stressed cuz this guy liks me and idk what to do about him, i like him too but i just have this feeling like i dont wana go out with him but i do and i feel funny. idk if hes right, hes never had a gf and ide be his first and idk how hed act if i went out with him. im just scared :/ idk whyy. I want to see if theres other guys out there which i know there is. Idk i just want to stay single and have the option to look at other guys because oviously hes over me and moved on but if he changed his mind ide go right back to him. hes the only exception. All i have in my head is memories of him and me and how we used to hold hands and never let go. i miss that so much and when im completly over him i will be able to have the same feelings toward another guy. I want to completely move on but i just cant, its impossible! no one knows how hard it is to just say "i dnt like him" cuz i still do but i dont. Whatever, srry if this is all over the place, i need to learn how to organize my thoughts better but its hard to do that when ur confused how u feel :/