im so glad ive been talking to you. It actually seems like you want to talk unlike a couple months ago. Maybe you miss me? dought it. If your girlfriend just went somewhere id be much easier, less stressful, less heartbreaking for me. Everyone around me is telling me to move on except my best friends. And believe me, its harder than you know. They don't know. I'm kind of mad and happy at the same time that he's talking to me.  Because now i don't have to worry that he hates me and now there's hope that i can get things back but its going to be hard or even impossible. And at the same time i'm upset because what if he's completely moved on and there's no chance? Talking to him keeps me holding on but as i said what if there's no chance at all? now im wasting my time and itll be even harder for me to move on... what to do... idk and ill figure it out someway or another. Anyway, right now im with steph and after ill probally hang out with kristina, i wana see her so bad! i miss my zeeby :( me and steph are walking to target soon, so im gunna go get ready to go. write later possibly, probs not tho. goodbye<3

i love you!!