this week has gone by pretty fast, alotta ppl say it went slow but its how i see it. i can't believe how much work ive had to do, its crazy! atleast its done and i have the weekend to look foward to. im dressing up tomarrow for halloween and im kinda scared? xD im being battman (girl form) and i can picture it now. im gunna walk ina nd no one else is going to be wearing it except my friends...like the night of the homecoming dance...ohboy. haha. altho im scared im excited! i love halloween, and i really dont care what my mom or dad say about dressing up or trick or treating. im still a kid and its the one holiday ppl actually can be one.
oh and im sorry for acting like this. i know yew havnt said anything but i know u notice it. i just need to say that i need to get used to this again. i no im not the best out there but just give me time and itll pass.
so its 10:36 and im tierd and going to bed. goodnight<3

its kinda bad how long i havn't writtenn...so, my day was good. i woke up and i wasnt really that tierd like i usually am, i knew today would be gud, i just hada feeling. I stayed after to hangout with mike and tom. pretttty awesome. this week? pretty great too. ive had my ups and downs but whatever. Im glad to know that you like me, it just sometimes doesnt seem like that. idk why. i guess cause yew never told me, ive only heard it form other people. so yah, im waitin on yew. Idk what happened about that last guy, the same problem happened, he didnt tell me how he felt and it kinda just drifted apart. atleast i know what i wana do tho. im not the confused girl i was weeks ago. i just hope things will stay this way. i want this relationship to last, not drift away like they always have.

i havtah say today was a great day. school went by quickly but the rest of the day felt so long. I stayed after school with most of my friends and then went home wiff steph and kristina but later went to chilis including hallie. that was a pretty...interesting night...haa. i don't like to fight a lot but i wanted to tonite, it was really kinda funny. some people are just obnoxious...ANYWAYS. theres really nothing to write about for today. i guess ill go to bed now.

Ps. don't worry about him and don't let him get the best of you. i know you can be happy and you should be. push him away right now until he grows up and gets some balls. seriously.

"i watch the night turn light blue, but it's not the same without you, because it takes two to whisper quietly, the silence isn't so bad, till I look at my hands and feel sad, 'Cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly."

cutest song ever. including 6 months. jussstt sayyyinggg. <3

havnt written in 5 days? thats a problem. ahaha. life hasnt been much differnt except that i wana lose some weight, not alot. ive been exercising and tryign to eat good, and so far im doin okay. hopefully i shall look gud on my birthday :D. one other thing is about my best friend. she keeps getting hurt and it bothers me to know that yer doing that to her. of course im still friends with yew, but yew tell people one thing and change your mind within another. make up your mind and deal with it. im not the one hoo shud be saying this but common?yew run away from her but then go back and wind up leaving again to leave her there so she can cry. its not fair. besides that, ive really had alot on my mind lately. its just so stressful. everything hits me at once and idk what to do. i don't know how to react to things anymore. whatever. life moves on. music usually makes things worse but today it actaully kinda helped. well ima ride my bike thingy now. byee.

things havent really gone as plaaned for me latley. of course im really happy lately, im not going to lie. But this thought of confusion is still stuck in my head. it wont go away. i tried to ignore it, but it keeps coming back and hitting me in the face. i don't know why i even feel this way. i rly dnt even know how to feel anymore. I've been stressing life becasue of this crap. this week i havnt. being stressed is not what i wanna be. im just gonna live life, keep doing what im doing, and what ever happens will happen. Im not saying im gonna live it like charlie did from summer reading book and not participate in life. thats the total oppisite of what i want. im also not gonna sit here and pick at what bothers me. im not going to waist my time listing of whats bad in my life. If something so small bothers yew, why let it bother yew? we don't know when our time is up, so just live life and have fun with it. don't focus on the worst parts of your day or life and make time for things yew like to do.
its very early now, round 7:40 am. i gotta go get ready to go to moheagan sun with my cousin. im missing school for this so i hope its really fun. i get to see jonas. whoooot. bye.<3

love this quote...love this song. "you're the direction i follow to get home. When i feel like i can't go on, you tell me to go. And it's like i can't feel a thing without you around. And don't mind me if i get weak in the knees, cause you have that effect on me, you do."

havnt had much to say latley well, actually, i rly have no way of xplaining things. i have to start off saying that i havnt been happy since the beginning of school and to tell yew the truth, i dont know why. i guess everything hit me at once. some days were good and then others were just terrible and i had no idea how deal with this. this might sound stupid but going to church last sunday helped me realize that we should be happy in life. of course shit happens in life, god didnt want life perfect. without out downfalls, mistakes, losses, life wouldn't be worth living. everything would work out perfect and life would be pretty dull. we were choosen by god to live and thats a huge gift enough. we shouldnt be worrying about those things that bother us most and actually start seeing the good life has brought to us. this week i was actually feeing happy until friday came. i was having a prety good day until something so stupid was bothering me, i cant even remember what it is. i was alright for the rest of the day and when my dad got home i just crashed. i don't know why this happens. in the past i cried over you nd now im crying over nothing?!really?...well after that night pasted by i actually felt pretty good. i guess i needed to. this week end ive been really happy and i want to keep it that way. yesterday i went to see relient k and 2 other bands that were really good. soo overall it was amzin :) we were barricade!!!!!! whoot!!!!
uhh so yah, ig2g, dads yelling at me to leave. BAI.<3