today was a semi gud day so far. i slept at kristens and then went to the marriot and the sheridon hotel to look at sweet sixteen rooms. I wound up liking the sheridon much better consittering u got more fro yer money. Im so excited, you dnt even know! ahaha. Hopefully i get a good dj and my party turns out to be good. After that i went home and went on the computer fora bit. i started talking to this kid nick i met in new orleans from nebraska. he's a rly nice guy and i wish there was more guys like him down in new york :( he said he mite be able to come down to long island and come visit me for my birthday! dought its gunna happen but that would be amazing, love that kiddd. well anyways, im guna do something productice and maybe read my summer reading book. byee!

PS. i just wanted to tell you that i still am yer best friend but the truth is u havnt been one to me. ur moods are always changing. I dont even do anything rong and you give me this aditude like im shit. i got that additude from my last best friend and were no longer speaking. I feel like i cnt hangout with other people besides u. i never ever give u a hard time if you hang wiff someone besides me. u say yer done caring but u still do care, i know u like my sister, u care...alot. I dnt know how to please you. U get angry and now im trying to be nice and all i get out of that is nastyness from you. i just want you to be happy but im always doing something rong lately. Yer mean to me sometimes and the one time i freak out on you u barely even look my way anymore. I guess i lost it because all of this has been inside me, hiding from the truth. I want u to know all this so we can fix this. This is how i feel and i didnt twist it in anyway. im sorry for being a bitch but i have to stand up for myself once in a while, now its your turn.