(8:00)i just got home yesterday night from lake george. It was a fun family vacation and it was the one time i actually had a gud time with my little cousin. Shes much older now and alot more mature. Yet i still see the 6 year old in her. Anyway, today was a great day. i hung out with kristina all day and im still. I never really hang out with her as much as some other ppl, but i have to say she is one of the bestest friends i could ever have. "or u could buy a pedafile!" "buy a pedafile what are u saying?!" lmao, i love this family. I was supossed to hang out with ppl at matts house or just hangout with steph but she oviously doesnt want to hang out with me. Yah. i know you lied because yer mom is hangingout with my mom. you coulda just said that u have someone over becasue i know that i like to hangout with differnt ppl alone. It doesnt always have to be a whole group of ppl, it could just be 2 hanging out. I dont see the big deal. U always said that ppl shud be able to hangout with only one other person and u dnt have to invite anyone else. ppl shudnt get mad right? but your mad about something that U said u shouldnt be mad over. Im not mad at u but im just annoyed. u said u wanted to see me and i said i wanted to hang but i was seeing kristina first. U decided to say u couldnt so yer loss. Whatever, i hate fighting with you. So im just gunna watch full house with kristina :D

(8:45) so for some reason i keep listening to love songs? i dont know what it is about them but they always make me so happy. Later in life when i get a boy friend that i really care asbout i want to write him a love song just for him. Im not a good singer but i like writing lyrics or poems that mean something. Listening to all these songs also reminds me of him, but not always, some of time. i dont even think of specific ppl, i think of a boy friend in general. not a stupid one just because i want a bf, someone ill care about for a rly long time. I dont wana sit around forever and not have anyone to care about. I wana some one soon. Im hurting inside still and i need that one perosn who makes me forget. Ill forget all about stupid him nd only think of them.