Im starting over with this whole blog thing. i can never keep writing it but latley i feel like i need to.
Today was actaully a really great day. I wasn't that tired this morning and could actually get my ass out of bed. My grades are pretty good this marking period, although i do procrastinate, everyone does it so whatver. i really love my teachers this year too but they can really piss me off for no reason. like mr. long for instance who thinks hes so funny, when he's not and doesn't help you out when you need it...
besides teachers, i really hate how things have been latley. not friends, guys. you know what sucks? no guy makes me feel important. no guy ever made me feel like i was the first person they wanted to see when then got to school. every guy i dated wasn't "the one." there was never a guy that seemed like love. only one ever did. but he's moved on, and so have i. i just miss it. i miss having a guy that i can say i love and mean it. maybe not love, but like a lot. i always wanted to talk to him. my heart raced when our eyes met. i loved hugging him and seeing his smile. he was the one who could make me laugh when i was having a crappy day. when i say these things, i'm not kidding. i want someone like that again. but the way things have been going, it doesn't seem like it'll happen. Every girl atleast once in their lifetime wants something they can't have. I wanted him but he wasn't in reach. There's someone else who i want but I know i could never have. He's out of my league, that is fact. As this year has passed, i found myself getting excited to see you. liking you? idk, a little..maybe more than i should. i don't want to becasue i know it will just hurt me in the end. so for now, i'll just deal. theres plenty of guys out there....right?
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